Map of Consciousness: Vibration of Pride
In this series we delve deeper into David R. Hawkins Map of Consciousness. My intention is to assist readers in discovering their baseline vibration (where they are now), where they are headed next, and even celebrate with them as they move from one level to the next.
Level of Consciousness: Pride
Frequency: 175 Hertz
Definition
I like the Oxford’s Dictionary definition of pride the most. The definition of pride is a feeling of deep pleasure or satisfaction derived from one's own achievements, the achievements of those with whom one is closely associated, or from qualities or possessions that are widely admired.
The Life Experience of Pride:
Individuals living in the Pride vibration experience a world that is demanding. They feel as though they can never do enough, that there is always more to do. Their overarching perspective of God is that he/she is indifferent, meaning he will let individuals sink or swim– how far an individual swims is up to the amount of effort they put forward. As a result, individuals living in the Pride vibration will over inflate their own contribution compared to others and put themselves on a pedestal. The challenge, however, is that the pedestal is very fragile. They maintain their balance by maintaining the feeling that they are better than others and predominantly feel the emotion of scorn, that someone or something is worthless or a mockery. Because the pedestal is so fragile and narrow, they are always at risk of falling off and back into the low vibration of shame.
I was arrogant and dare say bitchy when I was going through the vibrational stage of Pride. At one point while traveling with my parents in a foreign non-English speaking country I would actually get upset with them when they asked tour guides questions that I had already given a “perfectly reasonable” answer to. Imagine my shock when the tour guides repeatedly gave answers that showed I really had no idea what I was talking about! It was important to me to believe that I had all the answers. It was all I could do to protect my fragile pedestal.
When I looked back at my life experience I would also speak of my accomplishments in a way to make me look and feel more important than others. In fact, I could always discount what others had to say because “I knew better.” I was a closed door and didn’t trust that others could possibly relate to what I had experienced in life.
My weight was also fluctuating considerably at this point. While it is true that I had some severe health issues arise that kept me from exercising like I had before, I still did not confront the fact that I was not eating responsibly. My food addiction flared again during this time. What is interesting about this is that people struggling with addictions in the Pride vibration often stay stuck because they are in denial about their own contribution. They keep accountability at bay.
As an energy healing practitioner I also felt pressure to have all the answers and look like I have it all put together. It was during this time that I struggled to accept the truth that even coaches need a coach. Because I insisted on pushing my way through life solo up until that point, I assumed that was the way forward indefinitely. It wasn’t until I opened up to the possibility of trust, vulnerability and connection with others that the self-made walls that kept me trapped in the Pride vibration finally began to fall.
Are You Living in the Pride Vibration? 5 Questions to Ask Yourself
Are you arrogant, in other words do you always have the “right” regardless of the question or situation?
Do you isolate yourself when you are striving to achieve a goal or accomplishment?
Do you look to past accomplishments or achievements to boost your self-worth?
Are you part of an organization that gives you a sense of belonging and pride like the Marines or even a particular religion?
Do you view the world as demanding and that there is never time for you to just be?
If you answer “yes” to these questions, there is a chance that you may be living in the vibration of Pride.
4 Ways to Pull out of Pride
Here are a few tools I used to pull myself out of the Pride vibration.
Ask for and be open to direct feedback. Feedback comes in direct and indirect forms. After traveling in Turkey with my family I wrote a whole blog post on how the Universe finally showed me I can be a “know-it-all.” I’m glad I got that message, but ultimately I think the underlying message was that I can be arrogant. But I didn’t get it at the time. Then I created a couple of opportunities to gather direct feedback. Now this was painful. I gathered feedback from both people who loved me and people who just met me. Ouch! At first I wanted to resist and push back, but then common sense would sneak in and point out that multiple people said it. Ugh. I had to choose to not only be open to direct feedback but also sit with it and let it sink through my carefully curated masks and games I play.
Embrace self-love and authenticity. Those stuck in the vibration of Pride are married to the idea that value comes from external validation in the form of possessions, accomplishments and achievements. I lived this to the extreme. I was stuck in the habit of looking to other’s approval in order to know how to act at any given moment. This was exhausting. I started to notice how much I held back and how much I conformed to other’s expectations. Finally, one day I looked in the mirror and saw how incredibly beautiful and worthy I was. I cried like a baby. While I didn’t know then how to break the chains that kept me from being authentic, I at least knew I had to commit to breaking the chains. I knew that just by setting the intention alone, opportunities and teaching moments would come. And they have. I am still practicing but I am 100% committed to this aspect of my training.
Cultivate trust, vulnerability and connection. I chose to group these three values together because they support each other. So far in my own journey I’ve learned that as I cultivate trust, vulnerability, and connection with God/Source/Universe and others. As I have done so I’ve started to be less self-centered and genuinely more concerned about others. Not only am I more open to feedback from others and situations in my life, I am more committed to creating with others. Instead of feeling like I have to do everything in my life on my own, I am starting to see that there are opportunities to create even greater things with other people in my life and as we do so we lift each other up. No one is on a pedestal. Instead we’re all equals.
Find a trusted energy healer. A trusted energy healer like myself can support the release of energy like pride and other masks and games you’ve adopted in life. Every time an energy healer assists you in releasing discordant energy creating coherence once again, you align more closely with your original authentic vibration. Trusted energy healers can assist you to sift through and release energy more quickly than if you were doing it all on your own.
If you find yourself living in the vibration of Pride, you’ve got great company. Most people strive to get to this point and stay here. However, it is important to not get complacent here as just around the corner is an incredible transition from fear based to love based energy. This is the last stage in the lower levels of consciousness, abundance and flow is just around the corner with the vibration of Courage.
